what is wrong with me? i feel like i'm incapable of learning anymore; even if i want to. i want to have grades i can be proud of and i try to study but i just feel like i don't have the motivation or that i'll just be disappointed when i try really hard and don't do well because, for whatever reason, no matter how hard i try, i can't get better than a C. and i really do want to do better but i think the fact that i don't know what i want to be when i grow up is really affecting how hard i'm trying in school. like if i had a goal to pursue, would i try harder? if i knew that i had to get certain grades to get into a major that i really wanted, would that motivate me or am i just hopeless? because all i can see myself being in the future is a wife and mother. i want to make someone else genuinely happy just by being myself. that's it.
i just want to be happy. why is that so difficult for everyone else to understand?
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